Hopeless

I can't imagine having holidays again. We had a cottage in Norfolk booked for next week but I cancelled it,.we had been there before and I couldn't face going back alone. Every little thing brings back memories, and they hurt so much. The loneliness is really hard,.for all of us I know. 

That was me too Spirit. I phoned my mum every other day and they lived not far from me so they saw a lot of William when he was a baby. My dad was besotted with him and always made sure they saw him right with everything and anything he needed. He was a big influence in William growing up. But I think you're right when you say if they work all week they just want to crash at the weekend or do their own thing. I just don't feel included in their lives somehow and that was something Jay and I always did with my dad. Sometimes my dad would think he was intruding when we asked him anywhere but it was good for him to be with us and make memories with William. As Breton says maybe its a thing with sons and a generational thing now too.

xx

You wouldn't have enjoyed going back there yourself . As you say things and places even songs bring back memories . And it is excruciating. You will have holidays again eventually . Perhaps with a friend or group of friends . My friend has been widowed 11 years now. Often She will invite herself on holidays with friends or her family. She has no Children . Last year she joined a singles group and went to Lytham St Annes for a few days and really enjoyed it. Personally I wouldn't be that confident or brave. She used to invite herself to our caravan regularly. I think the only thing putting her off inviting herself here is that we have 4 dogs and she's not crazy about animals.I need to sort out the spare room before anyone can come stay .