My husband passed last Saturday - I'm lost

There must be something. From what I've been told from others who have lost someone close . Things that have happened after they've passed . Signs that cannot be ignored. My Hubby's Father had many Heart attacks between the age of 40 to the one that took him at 55 years old. He told my Husband that when he was on the operating bed/table and had a heart attack ,that he was floating above out of body watching them resuscitate him and he saw the shining light others have mentioned. But he came back. And his Father wasn't a bull -shitter . I believe it happened . He's not the only person who has said they had same experience . Also my Hubby kept getting his Best friends name flash up on his computer after he died of a massive Heart attack. I believed him even before he showed me when it happened on one of many occasions. His Wife mentioned many unexplained things that happened in their house . I do believe our much loved Special people try to send us some sort of message . My sister once made up a Ouija board and we played on it while our Parents were out. We were quite young and couldn't possibly have known the things that came up on it . Our Father went mad when he came home and caught us with it. And destroyed it ,telling us not to mess about with one ever again.  There definitely is something . 

I understand your feeling as I am also a.new widower.  My Tricia once wrote.   Don't remember me with tears, .remember all the laughter we shared over many years.

When you walk down the street feeling lost remembering in your mind, he willbe with you but half a step behind.

So   please do not be unhappy because i am out of site.

Remember I am with you every morning  noon and night.

It will get easier for you as time goes by  its still hard for me as well

But it is true  he is still in your heart and mind

If they ask how are you?  Tell them speaking helps

Best wishes Don

I wish my Hubby had wrote something for me. I found our letters to each other before we were married 49 years ago. I was finishing packing and came upon them in a box. I need to find them before they get lost again.I must start going through all my "Stuff" again. I hate that we ran out of time . That letter from your Tricia is lovely . Something to treasure  . I'm surprised ours are still in good condition. Or at least they were before I moved house last year. 

That is lovely Don, it gave me comfort, thank you x

I wish I had letters, we had texts and telephone calls in the beginning.  Find your letters Breton and treasure them x

I will. I don't think My Hubby knew I still had them . I wish I had found them before he left. We would have laughed at how soppy and silly we were ages 20 and 23 . Just realised We were that age when we married. We wrote those letters when I was 18 and he was 21 . We had broken up for a short time and so my Mum had booked a holiday in Spain for my younger sister and me for 16 nights. Then we got back together and got engaged. He was writing letters every day and sending by Airmail  I sent a few postcards and letters by land which were taking longer   If only we realised we needed to cram everything good in when we were young,but we just don't think this far ahead do we? 

no we don't. I so many regrets, places we didn't go last year that we said we'll go next year. Thing we didn't do because there was always tomorrow, then tomorrow doesn't come.  That makes me so sad. We didn't get the chance to grow old together, we still had so much to do and see then the cancer got bad so quickly, it breaks my heart, as Jack kept saying it's just not fair

We were the same, we always talked of going to places we lived " when I retired" but that ship sailed when Tony fell ill the first time ( he had an aortic dissection) and he never wanted to be far from a hospital. I know I won't ever go alone. 

I don't have any letters I don't think, I only have one recording of his voice and he hated photos. I have to just hold onto the memories.

No, life isn't fair . I suppose everyone has a sad story to tell. On the outside people can look OK. Happy . But when you start talking..often they have or are going through bad times  

PTP you are probably right about the pension because the rules changed in 2016, and there are some circumstances under which you can get a small protected payment but its probably unlikely. You can apply when you retire, but I guess you have to plan to not get anything and be plesantly surprised if you do. I gave no udea, I still have 5 years to go before I get to state pension. 

How are you all managing in the heat? Me and heat dont get on so its a real struggle. Dobe nothing over the past few days and had to wotk today, thankfully from home.

I just signed up for a loss fouundation grief bubble. Ive been to a couple of online things and its good to just chat to others who understand. The bubble are the same group of people over 4 sessions so you get to know each other a bit. Ill see how it goes.