Two weeks on now and the day after my husband’s direct cremation which was simple dignified respectful and quick. I started decorating the hallway today pretty stupid really as last time I did it my beloved was lending me a hand passing paint up to me or offering tips I know I’ve messed up I can’t do the stairwell on my own . The thing is I’ve also been doing some touching up in the kitchen too I just need to pace myself but also it’s Keeping me busy I think I’ve taken. But too much on today! At least I might sleep a bit better?……
I read somewhere someone said to write few things down for the next day and have a plan and a goal which some days I’ve been doing but gone a bit off piste ..I will miss my husband admiring my handy work and appreciation it’s just me here now part of me thinks why am I bothering!
Oh yes MrsVT! Still get those days from time to time that's the time when you decide its best just to retreat under the duvet
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it is like my brain isn’t working properly. I can literally sit on the settee gazing into space for ages. I am either re-living our life, remembering the horror, or trying to concentrate enough to achieve things at home. My concentration is still awful. At times, I still have to do the focus for 5 minutes, so I actually get things done. As for paperwork, well …….. 
Yes me too Kate to all of the above.
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