Losing my husband

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It's been just over 6 weeks since I lost my husband of 46 years to cancer, I am just sorting through some paperwork and just seeing his writing breaks my heart all over again, it's progressively worse day by day just to make it through, life feels so pointless without him and the nights way to long, how does anyone survive this.

  • I said to my counsellor during one of our sessions, and I now repeat this to family, friends and myself -

    I will never have to watch him go through Alzheimer’s or Dementia. 
    Nor have to go through him loosing his hearing or eyesight. 
    He won’t have to go through loosing his parents. 
    I had to help him in the end with walking, washing, dressing and knew his frustrations and felt his indignation at this. So thankfully this only lasted only 2 weeks and not decades. 
    I only had to watch him wither away, barely eat and slow to a crawl for a few weeks, not years and years.

    And he never has to go through, watch, any of this with me being the old, ill, infirm one.

  • Mrs VT, you are inspirational! Long may you and your garden thrive.