i'm just angry

Grief is a very personal thing everyone is different on a personal level I was angry at first then i was blank getting on with life then I would be driving and all of a sudden out of no where I would break down crying , this is is true for the people I’ve lost , as for not doing enough I think we all felt that about a person we lost . Iam sure they knew we loved them and really that’s all that matters good luck people say time heals but I just think each day you learn better of how to cope all the best to you 

I am sorry for your loss. I am just 4 weeks into mine, everyday I  look at pictures and try to see what I missed. Could I have made her go to the Doctors earlier. Just a feeling of I let her down. Every night I ask for her to forgive me for letting her down. Even though people say I did everything I could. I have started to get angry which I think is hopefully is just a stage of grief. If you need help go for it. I am on a waiting list for grief counselling.  If I can ask for help anybody can.

I think i am beginning to understand a lot of us feel we didn't do enough at the time when maybe that was just not true. I am also doing the random crying as well, comes out of nowhere. Im relieved to know others have also felt the anger and this is actually normal, hoping it will pass sooner rather than later, it's not my default setting in life so these emotions feels strange to me. thank you for responding

im so sorry for your loss, its still very early for you, i too am hoping its a stage of the grief and it will not last too long, i hate feeling angry and irritated all the time. I do the same as you , every night i tell him i am sorry and i love him and hope he is not mad at me. But i think we all feel we let them down and maybe its not true, just how we process our grief, i am now starting to realise we all seem to feel the guilt part as well and hopfully that feeling will pass as well. I also think going to a grief counselling is a good idea, and its something i will look into too. thank you for responding