A friend sent me this beautiful video &. song. It is very emotional but I find it describes how I feel day after day. It's 3 years on since I lost my one true love, still I struggle day after day. I have family & friends who I can call upon but after 3 years I feel they don't want to hear me expressing my sadness/grief constantly. Once I'm alone behind closed doors it's just me, my dog & my thoughts. Inevitably I think of my beautiful, wonderful wife Sharon who passed away in our local hospice. We met late In life, we're together 6 years & married 15 months when she passed. Sharon gave me a life I truly never dreamed or imagined was possible, full of love, support & understanding, something I never had in my first marriage of 32 years !!
Now the dreaded Christmas approaches & I long for the new year to arrive, I have zero Christmas spirit in my, & it's a challenge to put on a smile to please others 
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Hope you enjoy the song & video.
https://youtu.be/7JChDBikDjw?si=Pfb-kxR3a3DqI30X
Best wishes to all.
Paul x
Haha, any Travolta moves are long gone ! Although the average age of dancers must have been 60+. It is heartwarming to see so many older mature people still able to enjoy a really good night out, da
ing the night away. What I did find difficult was seeing the couples dancing together, enjoying each other’s company, etc.. this just made me long to have Sharon dancing with me. It did bring a tearo my eye, but generally I managed to keep it together when I could easily have broken down there & then ! I know you will all understand when I say I miss her so very much 
I don’t think my heart will ever mend.
Time to go as the tears are building
Best wishes all & my thanks for all replies & your kind support 
Paul x
