I feel a bit like a cheat .... I have not lost a partner, I am the partner that my wife may be losing. Maybe not now, but I fear sooner than we hoped. We always hoped "forever", knowing this is not possible, but not so soon. I was diagnosed with bladder cancer 2 years ago., Miraculously, this has been resolved. Now all signs are for colon cancer... and I am plunged in the abyss once again, not stronger, as normally happens with experiences in life. But even more naked and weak. I can really think of accepting my end. I think so sincerely. But it is my wife, best friend, companion, confidante, soulmate and my wonderful daughter that make my heart ache.
But know this: your partners have gone. But they would have wanted you to be happy. To carry on. The *only* consolation I can think of in my last days would be to think that my wife and daughter can find peace. Start a new life, maybe not a happy one but one where you have made peace with what happened. As hard ad it seems, this is the only present you can do to your partners' memory.
I hope you all find peace.
Marco
