Hi everyone.
I'm sitting thinking about all the hype around the Bank Holiday weekends we have coming up.
For me that just means longer days on my own. I'm not really sure if I want sympathy I think I feel more fed up that I have nobody to do anything with.
My 2 sons are 23 and 17 and they have plans and I'm so glad they do. I feel proud of them for getting on with life even while missing their Dad. I just feel stuck, like I expect him to come back and say "let's do this or that".
Life just feels very lonely.
I got myself a part time job which I enjoy but mainly to fill afew hours of the day and that feels so wrong. I'm only 54 and I literally have no plans, nothing in the diary.
Sorry for the moan, I hope you all understand some days are hard.
