Loss of my wife

I will I'm trying to raise £500 for them I'm up to 400 at the moment 

Wow!!! That's amazing and you haven't done it yet!!!  I can see you'll have raise the target soon  I can't run for toffee but do like a good boogie

#macmillanaugustdance challenge I've danced to Michael Jackson T Rex The Sweet Wham Barry White and numerous others and posted a little paragraph/sentence re the songs to make it a bit of fun

I can't even dance I love the picture

I'm not even sure I can   I dance like a 3 year old child and lije no one's watching

How do you cope with the weekends I find it do hard with being in the house by myself 

Truth be told, I don't really even though I'm now 125 weeks on from loosing Colin. His 4 sons have their own lives to live and I get that but I do wish they would call more often, especially with the grandgirls aged 5, 8 and 10. 

I get up between 8.30-9.30 come down and look at my phone  for an hour or so, shower, face on etc have breakfast/lunch 11/12ish- pottter on with washing or ironing, waste time on my phone like a young person reading crap and watching the clock for cemetery time home ish before it gets dark. More phone time, maybe speak to a friend a bit with a glass of wine or 3 the fall asleep till half 1 ish then go up and take my mask off for bed and do it all over again!!

I do have some great friends but they live across the town and I hate dark driving and am reluctant to get a taxi home on my own so don't much like the dark nights because they are so long when I end up being home from 5pm ish.  If I  was 20 years younger (and fitter)I'd get a job at the pub close by, I love bar work, it got me through my old relationships, I'll be 60 in February so think I'm past it now  

I brought the 4 lads up with Colin since 1999 when the oldest was 14 and thr youngest was 4 (he's like my own kid) in their home when their mam left for some1 else. Now it's mine on my own and I am lost quite frankly.  But I get up, dress up and show up with my painted face and front as big as Blackpool I  miss my man hugs so very much but have to try and move forwards, there's no choice really is there?  

Often I'm glad to go back to work, but the general population pi$$ me off too much, retail is doing my head in and I keep telling myself I can't do another xmas here, think I need anger management lol!!!  Looks like I've rambled on too much I  need to do my dancing yet think I'll ask Alexa to play Donna Summer tonight  

Get yourself up for a boogie20 minutes will pass in no time have a singalong

Another Saturday gone and I'm sure we've all had our ups and downs during it to some extent.

Take care everyone.

WDJ

I've spoken to 2 people......Alexa for my dance for Macmillan and a woman who I see at the cemetery does my hubby's picture count? Does Alexa even count???