I am new here. As above my husband died 5 weeks ago today aged 70 in a hospice after only 4 weeks of diagnosis and very short symptoms.
His funeral, which I planned to the last letter, was an extremely emotional day - not only for me and family but for friends and aquaintances - there was not a dry eye in the house.
My eyes have not been dry since - I sob and sob for my darling husband. I want him back - the house is so empty without him and I am empty too. I am inconsolable. I sob and sob to have lost my darling man. We'd been together 24 years with hardly a day apart. He was my world, my rock, my friend, my confidant, my absolute everything.
What''s the point in going on? Everything we planned has crashed down around me and all happened at 100 miles an hour. I am 64 and will be going back to working full time in the new year as it will get me out of the house which we have so lovingly created and which does hold so many memories but sometimes I am so absolutely overwhelmed.
My heart is smashed to pieces. What now I ask myself. Thank you for reading this. Any help, tips, guidance, or whatever will be greatly appreciated.
Hello Treas. My heart goes out to you. It's just turned 15 months since I lost my partner. I still get waves of sobbing although far less than I did at the beginning. A wave seems to build up and then hit. One thing that did help me, and might help you too hopefully, has been keeping a private journal. For me, it's a place where I can write about my memories of him, pour out my feelings, write him letters etc.
Take care.
Dunlin
