Lung cancer took my Mum in january after 18 months. I am finding it really hard to cope, and as time goes on, it just gets worse. She was the best Mum, but more than that she was my best (and pretty much only) friend. I called her every day and the silence and the void is so loud now i just dont know what to do. i dont know how to feel normal in a world where she is no longer. i am on a waiting list for counselling from our local hospice, that will start in May, and i have contacted cruse, but they have not been able to help much, but having said that, what can they do? what can anyone do? i have lost my Mum, im never going to see her again or hear her voice and i dont know how to process that. My Husband is amazing and very understanding but hes not my Mum! I know from losing my Dad to cancer 30 years ago that grief never goes away, so im not expecting that, but im crying every day and it feels so unbelievable that she is not here any more i just dont know how to move forward. im completely lost.
