8 days ago, I lost my best friend and sister-in-law at the age of 39, to breast cancer which spread rapidly, leaving behind two little girls. I feel like I'm grieving for multiple people at the same time. I've lost my sister, my best friend, my son's Auntie, my husband's wife - I'm feeling the weight of all of those losses.
The shock of her not being here anymore - I knew she had a terminal diagnosis, but I was so focused on keeping her strong and positive and fighting that I didn't think about what would happen when one day that wasn't enough anymore.
I seem to alternate between numbness and such anger and sadness that I feel like I can't physically stand it. The silence on my phone is deafening and the thought of this lasting a lifetime now, is breaking me.
