I lost my mum last month. I can’t believe it’s been a whole month. After organising the funeral and imminent things with my siblings I had to get back to ‘regular’ life but when I stop I have so much in brain and the crux of it is that I kiss my mum so much. How do I recover from the loss of my only parent? Her cancer took her so quickly neither of us had time to prepare or say goodbye. There was still so much hope, until there wasn’t. I watched her take her last breath and I can’t unsee that but I don’t regret being there. I just don’t understand how I will ever feel whole again? I kiss talking to her, spending time with her, planning things and making memories. I went to her for all my advice and I don’t know who to ask anymore. I would share happiness and worries with her. I feel so lost without her.
Hi Meesh welcome to the forum and I am.so very sorry about the death of your beloved mum and how you are feeling. Things will be very raw for you right now and I remember that well when I lost my mum wth little time like you. There is unfortunately no guide for how to grieve or how to feel either . I suspect, like my mum did, she will have instilled in you many strengths, values and it sounds like also a wh
le world of love. They always say time is a great healer, I'm not so sure about that but that raw feeling gets less raw over time and then happy memories of your wonderful mum will fill your thought
and daily life. She is in you
️ and when the time is right you will feel yourself doing or saying something and think "that's what my mum would have said". Don't be too hard on yourself love and loss are linked together. Thinking of you. Gail x
Hi Meesh, I lost my only parent in October 2024. I still cannot believe it’s happened and she’s gone. I’m only 26, she was everything to me. I can assure you things do get easier to bear, but you will never stop missing them. I cry almost everyday to a song I feel like she talks to me through. Just know she’s with you every second of everyday, watching you and guiding you, and hopefully you’ll feel safer in this world knowing your angel is making sure of it above. Lots of love. Always here
Hi, I also lost my mum last month, with a sudden diagnosis and then gone within a few months. I still feel in shock. Like you, I was with her at the end, which I am grateful for, however I constantly play those moments through in my head. I feel lost and have no motivation to do anything. When good things happened, the first person I would tell is my mum as was always so happy for me. It’s so very hard but I know I’ve got to get through. X
Hello Meeesh,
I lost my mum 2 weeks ago and we just had the funeral yesterday.
like you, my mum was my best friend, supporter and my strength - I came on here because I feel lost but just reading these replies and your comment makes me feel less alone, we are all hurting but also healing together.
sending a big hug your way, let’s hope our mums visit us in our dreams tonight xxxx
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