I feel like I am in this surreal
world. Like what on earth just happened to me. We got through Christmas and new year. The last few months have been a blur since my mom died.
I feel slightly more in control, but I feel so tired of trying to be normal. I went through my mom’s medical notes last week with my nurse friend. It’s just so awful and sad. My mom was seriously ill with terminal cancer and no one worked it out until the night. Fire she died. She was in hospital for the last 12 days of her life and the end was horrific and traumatic for her and us.
i am feeling angry today and exhausted. Last week I finished my first full wee at work for 6 months.
I miss my mom so much.
