My life has a huge void without my mom

Hello BeccaD and welcome to the forum, i am so sorry to hear about your mum. I lost my mum to cancer so know what a difficult and emotional time this is for you, a time when you need support more than ever. Becca sadly your treatment at work is not unusual and have seen it too often on the forum. I can't help you with your grief and the emptiness you are feeling, but i do know you need support, and time to grieve, Becca the macmillan helpline offer great support, 08.00am to 20.00pm as do Maggies centres who are a cancer charity drop in centre who provide emotional  and financial support, many people on the forum including me have benefited from them, just type "www.maggies.org" to find your local one. My mum was also my best friend and i still remember the enormous emptiness i felt when she passed, the one you are feeling now, Becca I was lucky to have good support  to turn to after losing mum and know how much it helped, i hope you find support to help you, please take care, Eddie

All I want for Christmas is my mum too. To have her sat at the table in her spot and be with us all.

I am dreading the day without her and don't know how I am going to get through it for the sake of my children.

It feels unimaginable Mac, I just can’t believe it’s real. Nothing will ever be the same again. 

Sending no you love and strength. 

I can't believe it's real either.

My plan for dinner is to have my wife sat in my mum's spot so there's no noticeable 'empty chair'. I haven't figured out the rest yet, for example how I'm going to manage to hold it together for the sake of my kids and my dad, who will no doubt be the same.

I know the first year will be the hardest, but that offers no relief. I've just got to get through it with her memory.

Hello

Just checking in to say you're not alone. It was my mum's funeral yesterday so I know what you're going through. Things will just never be the same. And it doesn't feel real either.

 Herbie53 thinking of you, I hope you are going to look after yourself today. The day after the funeral can always feel strange. We’re here for you.