Hi, im Dani, Im new to this forum and I have recently got in touch with MacMillan when I felt the world got too heavy.
I lost my dad on the 27th February 2023, he succumbed to a heart infection that was picked up through his PICC line following his 2nd chemo session, he was diagnosed with the cancer in December 2022 and we found out it was stage 3 aggressive and it had spread to one of his lymph nodes. I’m 24 years old and my dad was my entire world, my rock and the person I could always rely on. He was only 62 years old and it has been the most devastating thing to happen to me and my family.
He was larger than life, the absolute light of everyone’s life and could walk into a room and make everyone smile, I was by his side to the moment he passed and he waited for it to only be my mum, my brother and myself in the room, as soon as we said we loved him he passed. Heartbreaking but some would say beautiful.
I am really struggling following this loss, knowing how he was the most amazing man and the lust for life he had, he was ready to get the cancer gone and fight. Unfortunately it took 3 months for him to be diagnosed as he had the rarest symptom of cancer that was muscle wastage, it wasn’t until it was picked up on a biopsy that we knew.
I feel lost for all the things he will miss, me getting my first house, get engaged, get married, have kids. It’s too much to bare at the moment and it’s her to not feel alone even though you are surrounded.
life was so cruel and took him away, but I have the good thoughts that he thought he would be able to fight it, he wasn’t told it was terminal. Upon his passing the doctors said it was likely it was on his lungs unknown to him, I think we are grateful he didn’t have to go through that, no one deserves any type but especially someone like him did not.
its 2+ months down the line and it still feels like yesterday, it’s my first week back and work and it’s harder than ever.. I hope the pain gets easier to bear, but there will not be a moment I don’t think about or miss him.
