How to move forward

Hi darling and louise how are you both today .we are all on a similar journey and im glad ive found you .I was with my partner when he died  his death was peacefull and he wasnt in pain just around an hour before his passing he wanted to intriduce us to his brother who had died years ago he could clearley see him that brought me some peace and i can feel his prescence every day im here anytime for you big hugs xx

Hey there is almost something beautiful in the way your husband went he must have been relaxed and calm and that in turn would have given you comfort I wish my mum went like that unfortunately she didn't but I like the think she was guided by granny. I always thought I was quite a spiritual person always been able to pick up on things but I don't feel my mum any more it's very strange I don't feel her here but I also feel a sense of calmness that I never thought I would feel so I can only thing she was happy to pass over with no regrets. I feel today I'm on the edge I'm ok I got dressed got up but I'm like five seconds away from crying but I haven't yet. I'm making small changes today I'm going to get my little one from school which I haven't managed to do for a while. I hope your doing ok today I know every day is hard but some days are that bit harder than the day before so I hope your not in one of those days. Xxx

Hi darling im so sorry about your mums passing and you didnt have her very long after been diagnosed .Although our circumstances are different we are all now in this awful journey of grief .and its hard to bear .I also.get this feeling of calmness sometime during the day thats when i feel his presence .So glad you have a family and hope you have lots of support .When my mum died although i dteaded going bk to work it was the best thing realey to move me forward to some kind of normality .Today i met up with 2 friends for a coffee which was nice ,but the minute im home alone its so loneley and the longing to be with him awful plz be kind to yourself and find comfort in knowing you did all you could for your mum love xx

Hi faithful and darling. I hope you’re both ok as can be. 

im finding myself feeling some feelings of guilt.. wish I could have done more.. wish I could have stopped this.. guilty for living! Gosh it’s exhausting! I know it’s not guaranteed but I’d love to know he’s in a better place and he’s ok. I hope you’re both navigating through this.. sometimes I feel moments I’m ok and then right now I want to call him to talk about crap.. nothing special.. just being able to pick up the phone! And I can’t. What I would do for one last time. He used to call me everyday.. it’s heartbreaking. Im sending you both love xxx

• Hi Louise i feel your pain and all the feelings and emotiins are all normal and hard has it is we have to go through this .I strongley beleve they are with us comforting us .It doasnt sound like you have a supportive family but i so hope you have  other support and im always here and this community is a god send.I talk to my partner all the time just has i always did it helps me .last sunday was a real bad day for me i cried all day long was inconsolable ,today im calmer im keeping busy taking it one day at a time im sending you a big hug and lots of love Xxx

Hi faithful, thank you. Although I’ve still cried today (it’s two weeks today) and I’ve cried everyday since dads passing, but I am thinking he’s here in some way. I also talk to dad. I was in bed the other night and the lamp was flickering, the bulb is new and it’s never happened before… I started chatting away to him. I feel he was there. My family are vile.. dad was my family.. very sad but I’ve lost them all in one full swoop since he passed.. he was the glue. That’s hard for me to deal with.. but nothing I can do I suppose. I have good friends thankfully. Today I have been to see a puppy.. she’s lovely.. we get her next week.. and I feel it would be a good distraction for me after a horrendous six months. I was really happy and then came home and broke down as I feel guilty for having happy moments. I just feel riddled with guilt and sadness. It’s like you forget for a few minutes and then it slaps you again! Thank you for being there and I agree.. keep talking to them.. we get no verbal response but their presence is there. 

I send you love and hugs  and happy you are feeling calmer this Sunday. I’m glad you are keeping busy. Thinking of you xx

i hope you are well too Darling (also thinking of you) xx

Hi Louise wow I think the light flashing is defo a sign so pleased .Please don't feel guilty because your dad wouldn't want that for you they would want us to be happy i know that is what my partner. wanted for me.Today I feel so lonely just long for him and of all the emotions  we go through this for me is the worst one I carnt see how that will go away .Im a real animal lover so and have always had dogs but carnt now Just wouldn't be able to walk one every day which is not fair .Ive got a cat she is such good company love her to bits and the feelings mutual How is your day going ?.Im thinking of darling too.hope she is o.k. love and hugs to you  both xxFaithfull.x .