On Feb 10th my beautiful mum was given 3-6 months and 5 weeks later she passed March 18th
I moved in with my son (a 2 bedroom flat) on the Weds before she passed bought my sons mattress over so he wasn’t on the sofa - I slept with my mum as my step dad has always slept in second bedroom (possibly why their marriage lasted for so long) since she passed I’ve been sleeping in her bed but tomorrow my son and I are moving home…. I feel so anxious about it part of me is scared when I come back it won’t feel like my mums place anymore as my step dad is moving into her room as it’s bigger….I’ve spoken to him about not moving her stuff but I know I have no right to say that….he will eventually have to move stuff but I feel sick about it….I still think I’m in disbelief about her going and I’m scared that when I go home it’ll hit me although I keep saying I couldn’t feel worse than I do now as yes disbelief but I also can’t stop crying and just want to stay in bed…….
is anyone in a similar situation - I’ve never known such intense sadness
