Feeling empty

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My Dad died this morning after 6 weeks in hospital after an operation and several complications for treatment for bowel cancer (it had already spread to liver by the time he was diagnosed)

It has been 4 months of checking how he was everyday , taking him for appointments and scans and seeing consultants then arranging visits to hospital, a couple of trips to a and e and the last harrowing few days of hospital dashes at 2am . Now that is over I feel completely empty and like I miss it in a way , am I completely crazy? I thought I would be relieved in a way when he passed but feel so sad knowing I never have to wonder how he is again

Woodie25 over 2 years ago

Sorry for your loss,

I lost my husband to bowel cancer in January and for his last couple of month was his carer he chose to be at home not in a hospice.

I completely understand that feeling of loss and emptiness. Its the what do I do now feeling having been running around for them (don't know how to word that better) prescription, Dr's etc all of it to suddenly nothing. It's been 6 months now for me and that feeling does reduce but I still think sometimes, oh need to do that but then remembering actually I don't. It was such a routine I got into and I find it hard that I don't need to do that anymore. I'm lucky in some respects to have my children to focus on.

People say it gets easier, I'm sure it will. Just accept support from those around you and know at least he is at peace now no longer suffering from this horrible desease.

Kezzie100 over 2 years ago

So sorry you've lost your Dad.

I lost Mum at the end of May and I think we all have our own journey with this, but equally probably all feel the same at different points.

I found her funeral quite a watershed moment but I still get waves of sadness and I just give in and let it be. Today has been a hard day for me so far.

Look after yourself and those close to you. xx

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