Feeling So Sad

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Hi All,

I don’t know what I need to come on and say. Just wanted to say I’m finding it so hard and feeling so sad at the moment, I miss my Dad so much. We lost him on 8th Feb. He would have loved the weekend of Jubilee celebrations, and it makes me so sad that he isn’t here to witness it, I’m finding celebrations quite hard and just carry a constant sad heavy cloud around with me. Fathers Day, my husbands first official Fathers Day but my first without my Dad. We have a couple of street parties, one with family (my Dad’s side) and our street but if I laugh, all I do is think of my Dad. It’s been nearly 4 months now but nothing has gotten easier, my tears haven’t stopped, the hurt hasn’t subsided and the hole he has left just seems to be getting bigger, why did he have to go.

Anyway, I hope however you all spend your Jubilee weekend, I will be raising a glass to my beautiful Dad and to all of us that have lost our loved ones, we can do this!

Lucie xx

Link103 over 2 years ago

Hi Lucie,

I'm sorry to hear that you are finding things hard at the moment. I've been feeling the same over the last couple of days. One of my dad's friends sent me some pictures of my dad and it's been lovely to see them, but has made me feel so sad.

I dont think there is anything I can say to make you feel better as I know that nothing anyone else says to me makes me feel better. But just want you to know that I feel the same.

I've just completed on my first house (the process started just before we found out my dad's diagnosis), and what should be a happy and exciting time is just tinged with sadness that my dad wont get to see it.

If anything, i feel worse now than I did a few weeks ago. I still cant believe that he is gone. It doesnt seem real and in constantly feel like I'm on the verge of crying.

I dont know about you, but I hate thinking about one year, two year, ten years down the line when my dad will have been gone for that amount of time. At the moment at least I saw him two and a half months ago, but I cant bear the thought of not having seen my dad for years. I dont know if that makes sense?

I'm also feeling really angry at the moment about him being taken away from us.

I hope you and your family are able to have some happy moments during the weekend celebrations, knowing that your dad is looking down on you and smiling seeing his favourite people enjoying themselves.

Take care xx

Essex1 over 2 years ago in reply to Link103

Nice to hear from you. I’m sorry you are also feeling this way. It’s nice to have been looking at some photos, I find comfort in photos although they make me cry.

I totally understand what you mean about the years going on, I said this to my husband not long after we lost him, the thought of saying “we lost him 2, 3, 5 years ago” absolutely fills me with dread.

Congratulations on your house, I’m sure your Dad will be very proud and I hope you make some very happy memories in there. Maybe you could do a little patch in your garden for Dad, lots of lovely flowers etc and a little place you can sit and talk to him.

I had a medium reading last week and although it gave me comfort, the sadness hit me like a ton of bricks last week but believe me when I say they are with us always.

Enjoy your weekend and sending lots of love xx

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