On 19 Nov 2021. Dad was diagnosed with Lung cancer, the day after i found out. I am currently 5 months pregnant and dad was so protective of his little girl that he was devastated to have to tell me the news. Since then dad has been back and fourth to consultants ect. In december dad had episodes of breathlessness and we spent christmas and new year together before he started his first treatment on 28th Dec.
In Jan dad had an episode of breathlessness on Monday so when he went to get his bloods done he told the nurse about this and wanted to see someone. That day they gave dad antibiotics for his throat and said he might have a throat infection but the breathlessness can be common side affect. On Tuesday he had his second treatment of immunotherapy and afterwards his brothers and my older sister went over to see dad. He was in great spirits. I was not able to see him due to the radiation and being pregnant until 48hrs. On Thursday i went my day as normal ringing dad ect but no answer so i called in on the way to pick my daughter up from nursery and that was the day it happened. My dad peacefully passed away.
I feel so numb and have struggled to sleep with having the flashbacks of screaming ect. It has been a very traumatic experience for myself. my older brothers and myself went over to dads yesterday, we found comfort being there and we laughed all day about so many memories. Coming home i went to sleep but up again every few hrs due to my daughter being unwell. Today it has hit me again i dont know what to do with myself i want to be out the house i feel i can’t cry but then i cry. I feel so lost. It has been so hard with being pregnant that dad can’t now meet baby that is due in May his first grandson i am just devastated.
