my wonderful dad

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my dad was diagnosed with small cell lung cancer in February and passed on 10th Oct, I miss him terribly and cry all the time.. I feel like I should be looking for him but know I'll never find him.. I really hope its true that they're somewhere looking down on u cos I can't bare to think he's nowhere at all anymore.. I spent the morning with him on the 10th and told him I loved him and he passed 30 minutes after I'd gone which I feel so guilty about cos I left him, he passed with my brother by his side at home, I also feel like I should've and could've done more and been there more.. the guilt is killing me

  • I know I replied on my post on other page. I like to believe they are looking down on us , just after my dad died I asked him to send a sign he was ok & a Robin appeared right outside my window & ive never seen a Robin since moved here 2 years ago. & Monday we went up to lay flowers on his grave his ashes had been put up cemetery that morning & I said send another Robin & as me & my brother went back to his car a Robin appeared right in front of us. 
    it just brings me a bit of comfort. Also don’t feel guilty you was not their right at end. Guy at hospice told us that sometimes they go when not around. I was with my dad all day on Sunday sat outside in garden they wheeled his bed outside was lovely out there he was peaceful & comfortable. He died early Monday morning my mum & brother was with him I did not go back up as I suffer with fibromyalgia anyway & was hurting from being up their all day. But he know I loved him etc on the Saturday he was saying goodbye then & he wanted to go please let me go he kept saying & we said then dad you can go we will look after mum etc. X 

  • yeah I've had a few signs he's here with me, which is very comforting.. we were so close so knowing he could still be around me is lovely.. hardest part is I know I have people in my life who love me but he was the only person I felt the love from, I could feel his love for me in my heart.. thanks for your reply it really helps x