My mum died 5 days ago I was with her when she passed but I can't cry I feel everyone is asking me if I'm OK and to expect a tear but I can't I feel relieved she's not suffering anymore I just feel like this is not normal behaviour ?
Hi, I’m so very sorry to hear about your mum. My mum died 5 weeks ago snd I felt strange initially… a bit of relief for her and almost ‘ high’ busy speaking to friends relatives etc…. It’s the body releasing Adrenalin. My grief kicked in a bit later …. And the crying …. It may hit you later too . Mums funeral has passed and I think everyone things I should be having to ‘ normal now ‘ …. But I’m not. I had mums photo as my screensaver but had to remove it because the constant reminder of mum was too much to bear . I work in a hospital but am still off because the trauma and memory of seeing what mum went through is too much st the moment … I was worried I wasn’t normal too in my reaction., when my dad died I cried immediately… it’s strange how we can be different with different people. Mum snd I were incredibly close and I still feel like it hadn’t quite hit me .. … sending you lots of love. X
