Today it hit me Dad, it hit me hard! I don’t know why today, maybe because the sorting things have lessened, the funeral is done or maybe because we had a wonderful weekend with Shelley and the girls that you should have been at.
I woke up from a dream where we thought you’d died but then you hadn’t and I spoke with you, it was so real, it was like we were speaking in real life. But then I woke. You really are gone Dad.
And it’s not just that but the missing you is really kicking in, I miss talking to you, I miss you calling or seeing you at sarahs or mums. I miss our car journeys, and your excitement over telling me songs to listen to or funny stories.
I just miss you dad and it hurts worse than anything I’ve felt before.
I can’t believe I didn’t realise how much it would hurt.
I love you Dad, wish you were here xxx
Hi JuiceStool welcome to the forum and so very sorry to hear about the loss of your Dad.
I can relate completely to all that you are saying as I lost my Dad 2 years ago and I miss him everyday. The sense of loss never leaves you but the raw pain subsides a bit as time goes by. Its all so very final and nothing can ever prepare us for what it might be like without that person in our lives.
Thinking of you and sending some huge big hugs for now. xxxxx
gail
