Mum went home today

Hi Melanierubybenjamin sending my sincere condolences on your sad loss. Thinking of you and sending some huge big hugs your way for now.

Hi Melanierubybenjamin,

my mum also passed peacefully last week. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever lived through. The one positive is that I’m still living and mum would want me to carry on. But feeling so much pain each day and feel I need to hide this from partner/Friends and be strong. I just want someone to grab me and tell me it’s ok to be weak... but I fight on.

I get up and showered each day. I feel better after this. Then I do some exercise, walk or swim. This helps too. But the pain is still there. I hope it gets easier.... but they say grief is the price we pay for love. I loved her so much. I took that for granted but in the way most people do with a mother’s love. It’s built on an unconditional, never questioned love. Now I realise the power of this and I feel lucky I had such a loving mum. But also this makes it hard to let her go. 

 I hope you begin to feel lighter soon and know that your mum would want you to feel joy again. But in your own time and be kind to your self

Take care. X x

Aww bless you, I’m so sorry for your lost too! It’s so hard to put into word how painful it is, my heart is Broken, but I know also our Mums would want us to live on and try to stay strong (but it’s absolutely ok not to be ok) 

I would tell your loved ones how you are feeling, I’m guessing they already know and they are waiting for you to go to them 

I was fortunate to be with Mum when she passed and it was so peaceful and knowing she’s not in anymore pain

look after yourself 

melanie xx

1. Thank you so much, my heart is broken xx