8 months on

Hi, I know exactly how you are felling, it is awful, it’s been just over a year for my mam and I still feel like that, however I think this year with COVID hasn’t helped to make things any easier as been stuck in the house most of it! I saw a grief councillor from the hospice for 6 weeks after my mam died, don’t think it really helped me but it helps some people, did you get any councilling? Also, might be worth a visit to the gp they can recommend therapy’s and also medication which takes the edge off, don’t think I would of coped at all without my medication!

hopefully 2021 will be a better year for everyone x

Hello Pamharr66

So sorry for your loss. I recognise some of what you say- it’s eleven weeks since I lost my husband of 44+ years and I still can’t believe what happened. He passed away less than three months after his diagnosis and his last ten days were spent in hospital where because of COVID I was unable to visit other than two meetings with the consultant. The end came so suddenly and I didn’t get to the hospital in time. I still find myself thinking that he’ll be back later...ridiculous isn’t it. 

I still cry myself to sleep most nights. Evenings and bedtime are definitely the worst parts of the day and like you, I’m not sleeping particularly well. What I’d give for a cuddle and a goodnight kiss. It’s so hard and I do wonder if I’ll ever feel like me again. I just have this heavy pain inside.

Congratulations on your granddaughter- hopefully she will bring joy into your life. I’m going to become a gran for the first time later this year- but that is bittersweet as C knew that our daughter in law was expecting and he would have been a wonderful granddad. 

Take care and look after yourself.

x

Thanks I am on meds but not had counselling, I will think about it as the hardest thing is coming to terms that this has ac happened.

Thank you I’m now speaking with CRUZE and I do think it’s helping x