Dreading New Year

Thank you so much for your quick replies ladies.

Yes, I do mean just the numbness instead of being euphoric that I didn’t have it. It’s such an awful disease I felt like I should feel something but I just don’t. It’s really odd. But you have both helped me feel less abnormal, thank you. Sorry just needed a sanity check.

I hope you are feeling better now?

safe trip tomorrow.

Rest well ladies xx

 be it was worth it thou. Xx

Much better thank you. Xx 

Hello. I know what you mean about nobody wants to talk about death - yet, it is something we are all heading towards at some point. It’s not a case of if it’s a matter of when. I never liked to talk about death, even when I knew mum was terminal with cancer, my brain somehow refused to accept it, you want your loved ones to be with you for as long as possible. When mum passed, I think about death differently now and can talk about death openly. I have had the worst thing to happen in my life - losing mum. As you said faced with the worst can bring you self protection. x

Hi Sunny43, 

Welcome (dont know its thats the right word) not a place any of wants to be or imagined our selves. But a place we can share experiences and let it out. Xx 

Yes I think that so true. Its afterwards ive rethought about death and dying too. ( I was a big avioder before. Wouldn't even enter my head. Protection. Don't think, it it won't happen. )

Xx 

Thanks for the welcome Sunshine. Your right, this place is where you can let your emotions out and be yourself, as people totally understand what your going through xx

That's it. I'm always happy for a chat or just to listen. Xx sometimes you feel things. Feel your going bonkers. Then realise it's normal  xx  

Thanks Sunshine regarding chatting/listening.Been on this site makes you realise that everything your feeling is normal. Be kind to yourself xx

Hi all

Just checking in to see how everyone is?

I for one am not a fan of this cold weather - roll on spring/summer and bye bye coughs and colds!

Wishing you all a good week.

xx

Hey SPu, 

I'm ok. Had a tough up and down week. Very emotional. So today had a little chat with myself and  wrapped up warm and went on a long walk with my mum's beloved dog. He loved it and did me good to get out and get some air. Going back to work tmrw. Been off poorly then annual leave. Hoping I sleep as I know the 5.30 alarm is gonna be a hard. 

Wishing you all a good week. Xx