Sorry for everyones loss on here.
Ive just lost my mom 8 weeks ago for two years she had a cough and lost a significant amount of weight. We tried as a family to get her to go doctors and she refused. Then this year she started to get really poorly she started to collapse for no apparent reason and kept complaining her head didnt feel right she had two collapses one in May and one September. But on the 23rd of October she went out shopping come home and cried out this almighty horrible cry and collapsed she split her head wide open and ended up with bleed on brain. She was operated on and it was successful but then we were told their was another bleed and she would be like a vegetable. We made descision not to put mum through anymore and let her go hardest descision of my life ever. But they did a chest x ray whilst she was in icu in hospital and they found a huge mass in her left breast we didnt even know as a family she had cancer. This has broken me as i believe my mum knew but she never told me im absoulty hearbroken ive lost her she was my best friend. Im really struggling to get my head round why this happened the way it did I just cant accept she gone. Its like torture in my head i keep seeing her so poorly in icu unit with tubes etc ive had nightmares over this and now im not sleeping properly im scared to close my eyes incase i have more nightmares. Im crying all the time life is so hard without her now she was my support network with my daughter who has Autism and now im on my own everything is effort i have no interest in things. Im trying hard for my daughter but im struggling.
