Dreading New Year

Lovely idea to display your mum’s drawings Sunshine. I’m sure your mum would like that. I know it may sound a bit odd, but I’m going to start wearing my mums watch, the watch mum had when she was a young girl, it hasn’t worked for a very long time, but that doesn’t matter to me. As people say, you never get over the passing of a loved one, somehow we just have to learn to live with the grief - not easy though, is it. Hope your day has gone ok xx

The memory jar idea is a brilliant idea. You can also make memory boxes too. Where you can put pictures in, I have even seen people putting small knitted bears etc to represent a day or activity that you want to pass on. But the jar idea is good never heard of that one and you could decorate the jar with, well what ever you like ribbons, color etc. 

Not odd at all Sunny43.  That sounds so lovely. A real lovely piece. When we were sorting through my mum's things. My Dad said. Your mum would, want you girls to have whatever you want. I didn't know at first.   But then I thought, he was right. Who else would she want to have them. I have a handbag and a necklace.   Everyone comments on them. (My mum had good taste) I proudly say oh it was mum's. I know it's just material things. But my mum loved a good handbag and jewellery. So she would want them to be loved And worn. And i certainly love them  xxx

Ok day today. My fella has tasked me to look at holidays. I didn't know if I was ready to plan so far ahead. I explained. And cried. I cry a lot. I felt guilty we often holiday with mum and dad.  But we talked through and it's exactly what we all need and what my mum would want. We didn't have a holiday last year, because my mum was so poorly. But even in her last days she was asking about the beach. She loved holidays and I can hear her saying "go for it" so going to look. Xx 

I think by the sound of it your Mum would love you to on holiday . You could more or less say going and enjoy the beach like your Mum loved. I believe its going to be difficult but I think its exactly what your Mum would want for you and she would of known how much you cared for her and probably be there in memory enjoying the fine sand between the toes and the gentle crashing of the waves as the sea laps the sandy beach as you gently take in the warmth of the sunshine, imagine its your Mums loving embrace.

Aww lovely words Gbear. X

Sunshine19 - you for sure need to look at holidays. Think of it as a grief eacapism and an opportunity to breathe some fresh air, top up on vitamin D and reflect.

Gbear, If you do the jar, will you send us a picture of it customised? I’d love to see a pretty, arty one. 

Sunny43 - wearing your mums watch is such a great idea. That idea of your mum being close to you - time moving on but her moving on with you?! 

Day 2: of heat patches. I’ve got home and am running an extremely hot path to shift an ache or two! I retraced a route I haven’t done since  mum died tonight. The last time I walked that way, I was on the phone to her in Boots trying to suggest some heat patches for her lower tummy cramps. Seems foolish now to think that I was suggesting a heat patch and she was suffering with ovarian cancer!

Anyway, I guess the aches and pains are indication that the grief is trapped in my body. I’m heading back to Norfolk to see my dad this weekend, so hope that being back to our family home will help me face some of it, allow me to have a cry and relief some of the tension. 

Thibking of you all this weekend xx

Sure may take some time, but yes I am intrigued to the idea of using a jar as a memory jar, would never of thought of it. I was thinking after whats happened that it would be a good idea I will look and find a jar that calls to me, OK I will explain that one, someone once said to me, "you don't choice the box it choices you" I suppose it must be the same for a jar. 

Hi Kate. Yes I've been looking. Hopefully later in the year. Xx 

Aww hope you had some relief from your hot bath. Xx

Wishing you a restful time with your Dad Xx look after your self and remember it's ok to have a good cry and let it out. 

Thinking of you too. X 

K8EH - what a lovely thing to say, regarding mum’s watch, you’re right, time and life moves on, but mum will be moving on with me. I’m sure all our mum’s and loved ones are by our side and guiding us. As Sunshine said, wishing you a restful time with your dad xx