I really couldn't be bothered with Xmas this year... Something I didn't mention in the previous blog was that Dr Dhinakaran had asked me to chase up my previous chemotherapy notes to find out what had gone on.. Which I'm my bewilderment I'd agreed to do... And then managed to get hold of my key worker and his secretary to recind... How odd.
I think this sums up my frame of mind... Befuddled to the point…
So this was my first exposure to oncology and I have to say... Rather bewildering... I'm going to generously put his lack of preparation down to it being 23rd Dec and his assuming that I was a simple case to get booked in... But to say that the interview was disjointed was an understatement...
I am happy to accept that specialist doctors are sometimes not blessed with the best Bedside manner and am going to…
When I first had the diagnosis I was expecting the bad news having done some background research; I think this numbed the impact of having to look it in the face and do something about it... If at all possible...
Clearly there are a number of outcomes, none of which are pleasant and I had to haul myself in on the catastophisation... And concentrate on going through this a step at a time...
Consider also…
There was nothing amusing about the laparoscopy as far as I can remember.... I can remember my sister very kindly taking me off to Stoke hospital at very early o'clock... Standing around in the mizzle for a while waiting for the doors to be opened then getting to the day ward; which was typically hectic with the inmates and assorted relatives not being completely sure what to do with themselves...
Being admitted…
The Ultrasound endoscopy coincided with my having to do a 300 mile round trip later that afternoon to pick up my children - so, even though anaesthetic was offered, I opted for a liberal throat spray which meant I could drive straight afterwards... Though the ultrasound tube was a little thicker than the normal jobby, there was nowhere near the hideous discomfort of the biopsy... though Dr Jones was in there looking around…
