Tinklebell finds a lump..

...there's nothing wrong! The relief is tremendous. Can't thank you enough Little My for putting up with me this past week. I am really very grateful and won't forget your kind words. Now, leaving on a slightly funny note: was being ultra-sounded on my left uppy downy when the consultant said 'yep, that looks perfectly fine but can I just take a peak at the right uppy downy cos I'm a little concerned about this tiny…

Good news...My downs are ups: in typical British style I've treated myself and bought a pretty new bra from Gilly Hicks. Now I will look all flowery and pert (if the straps behave themselves), for my dishabillier (phonetic) tomorrow.. Swings and roundabouts: Ugh. Tomorrow. No matter what I do, in the back of my mind I am fretting and feeling mildly nauseous. Like a niggling toothache it flares up and whams you back…

So..I'm running for the lift (hospital ones are 'like' full when they arrive or just don't turn up, or are going down down down) when I do a splendid head first, limbs asunder, spectacular fall in front of everyone. Head almost came to a rest against a sign perched against the wall saying 'life support machines nearby, please turn off your mobile phones'..I thought this may not be the time to turn mine off.... Bounced…

Saturday: So, I'm supposed to be cramming for my new SLT placement on Monday: CN nerves, the brain, motor neuron disorders and the upshot is: I can't concentrate. My eyes point in the right direction but will they move from left to right? NO. So, I did time chasing dust balls around the house with a Hoover that seems to be on strike, emptied the washing machine drain-thang (it was shouting E240..whatever that means)…

The day after my 51st birthday (last friday) was the day that I found my lump. I'm not a stranger to lumps: many years ago I had two benign marbles removed, but this time, this lump seems so very different and scarey - it's flat, it's hidden, it's near my nipple, it's in the inside lower quadrangle of my breast and it's a wonder I found it at all. When I'm sitting I can't feel it/when I'm lying down I can, sort of…