Smashing The Stragglers...

todays 55 minute trip to southampton was the worst yet. Despite double morphine an hour before setting off it still hurts to sip water, and the car journey made me feel sick and tired, that's before I had any treatment! I wasn't very talkative at all which made the journey seem to last twice as long. Got in for treatment really quickly, but feeling sick all the way through it (not normal) treatment seemed to last twice…

Just settling down for the night and having doubled morphine dose am hoping for a better sleep. Whilst most of body numb, relaxed and tranquil, whenever I swallow I am in pain. What's the solution? If I close my mouth I don't swallow as much but mouth tastes of 'clagg' and mucus builds up in throat. If I open my mouth I need to drink sips of water as mouth gets dry almost immediately equals more swallowing. I could up…

As I sit waiting for next round of Zapps and reflecting on what a horrible last 24 hours I have endured half of me thinks how will I get through another 4-5 weeks? Fortunately the stronger half of my psyche reminds me that I am now 4 and a half weeks into treatment and infact almost 9 weeks into the whole cancer-ridding experience from my initial operation back in early Oct. Seen nurse who have told me to double dose…

Finally realised that I had to step up pain relief to morphine last night. My account of last night is pretty graphic so skip this blog if you need to... First spoonful at 5pm made me feel a little nauseous, a bit light headed and slightly number to the pain. I soon realised that the initial dosage of one big tablespoon every 6 hours wasn't going to cut it, and at 9pm I had to take another dose. Went to bed and out like…

Started tube feeding yesterday (Monday) evening, and was really lazy by not eating anything by mouth. Made up for it by drinking a thick tasty beverage in the form of a chocolate complan shake (its about as good as it gets!). Stomach gurgled throughout the night. Despite being given the morphine yesterday, after reading the side effects (nausea etc.) I decided to see if I could manage another night on just strong cocodomol…