Went to see mum today shes in a bad way docs have said there is no more they can do for here but make her comfortable we have decided to bring her home so she is with her family,
I woke up this morning, thinking about the future, I am currenlty single with no partner or children. and i think we will lucky if mum makes it through to the new year.
I will have no parents to introduce to any future partner, no father to give me away at my wedding and no mother to ask for parent advice, no mother to hold my hand through labour or help me get dressed on my wedding day.
I know theses are selfish thoughts…
visited mum in hospital today, she was very confused and was talking nonsence, doctors are assessing her later, not sure if she will be coming home again.
the lung cancer is very agressive and she now weights less than 5 stone and is not really eating.
been told to prepare our self, but unsure how to do this .
