Mummy’s poorly, let’s get her better

  • “Active treatment” finished, I should be celebrating…but just feel odd?

    On Tuesday this week I had my twentieth radiotherapy session after 18 chemotherapy treatments, a lumpectomy and then 20 radiotherapy sessions I was done with “active cancer treatment”. My radiotherapy centre had a bell and I rang it. I wa...
    • 21 Jul 2021
  • Supporting me and Supporting Macmillian

    I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, my friends and family through this time, have been amazing and incredibly supportive! During these strange times that we are in I think it’s safe to say many of them felt a bit helpless tha...
    • 8 Jul 2021
  • Mid-way through Radiotherapy

    So I am in my new routine, each morning I bid fair well to the boys and then I jump in my car and travel the 25 mins to my Radiotherapy centre.  I have had 11 out of my 20 zaps now.  I should have had 12, but there was one day when the mach...
    • 7 Jul 2021
  • First radiotherapy sessions and sorry what’s this thing called a workout!?

    After waiting for wait seems like forever I had my first radiotherapy session on Tuesday. I thought I might be a bit nervous but after chemo and the operation I’m now just used to medical appointments and procedures, I’m not sure if that&...
    • 25 Jun 2021
  • Radiotherapy Planning, no tattoo but the return of my sparkle!

    So after what seems like forever waiting I now have a plan for my radiotherapy! After my initial meeting with my extremely charming Radiologist three weeks ago I have been waiting patiently for my radiotherapy planning appointment and details of when...
    • 11 Jun 2021
  • Post chemo social anxiety…do I still know how to talk to people normally!?

    Whilst I’m waiting for Radiotherapy to start (no start date yet likely to be week commencing 7th June), I am timidly, along with the rest of the world stepping back into normality by meeting up with some friends and family I’ve not seen i...
    • 30 May 2021
  • Radiotherapy what’s the plan!?

    So last week I met with the radiotherapist. I’m so used to meeting consultants now I have my patter down. “Yes I am relatively young, yes I’ve been very lucky to keep so much of my hair, yes the cold cap was horrid, no I don’t...
    • 24 May 2021
  • Nails, eyebrows and teeth….the ongoing fun of chemo side effects

    After the high of last week, (which I’m still experiencing don’t get me wrong) it’s time to talk about some of the lasting effects following my 18 weeks of chemotherapy.  I am lucky and five/six weeks post my final treatment I&...
    • 14 May 2021
  • Post surgery biopsy results

    On Friday I was back at the hospital to see my Surgeon for my post surgery review and to hopefully get the results from the biopsies for everything they took out.  To say I was nervous was a bit of an understatement!  If they had the result...
    • 8 May 2021
  • Cancer reading and Chemo in lockdown vs pre-lockdown thoughts

    Whilst I’ve been attempting to do as I’m told and just rest to give my body a chance to recover from major surgery (I’m doing my best I promise), the one thing I am relishing is the opportunity to spend some quality time reading! Wh...
    • 3 May 2021
  • Worst patient in the world take two

    It’s been four days since my surgery, I’m home and under strict instructions to simply rest and recover from the procedure. That is easier said than done! As I mentioned in my previous post I am lucky that I have come out of my op well. I...
    • 2 May 2021
  • Surgery done and dusted

    I’m writing this from my hospital bed and I’m pleased to say that my surgery yesterday all went to plan. They removed my right nipple and the cancer lump attached to it as well as half the lymph nodes on my right side (which was the plan ...
    • 29 Apr 2021
  • Count down to surgery...try not to focus on 'what ifs'

    This morning I had my pre-op assessment and COVID tests ahead of my operation on Wednesday, its all starting to get very real!  The boys were dropped of with grandparents over the weekend (and are loving the excitement of it all, after all ...
    • 26 Apr 2021
  • Stuck in limbo, preparing for nipple-off

    It’s been a weird week. For the first time since I was diagnosed (25th November) I haven’t had any medical appointments or treatments this week and it has felt very odd. I was so lucky to go straight from diagnosis into a whirlwind of mor...
    • 17 Apr 2021
  • Has the chemo worked? Moving on to level 2

    It felt very odd this week, I didn’t have my usual chemo appointments booked but I still felt the same as I was still suffering the tiredness and other affects from my last session last week. However on Wednesday I made may way to the hospital ...
    • 10 Apr 2021
  • Level one of cancer club complete!

    Yesterday I wore the cold cap for the last time! Even writing those words doesn’t quite make it seem real. After 18 weeks I have finished the first stage of my cancer journey, or as my husband put it, I’ve completed level one of cancer cl...
    • 3 Apr 2021
  • Mum guilt and census sadness

    Had a great weekend with the boys. I was flying high after my success last week, have had my last “big chemo” and so whilst that meant I was my usual groggy tried self we had lots of family time and cuddles. Played some board games and re...
    • 23 Mar 2021
  • Excited for chemo, what have I become?

    Logging on today I realise it’s been two weeks since I posted. Apologies all I guess the reason being there hasn’t really been much to update on until now. First things first, the boys are back at school! Hurrah  I love my boys dear...
    • 18 Mar 2021
  • Loosing my identity...I’m not just my cancer!

    So this entry has been brought on in part by reading back through my early posts. They were only a few months ago and yet the tone and style of writing feels like a whole other person! Yes I’ve been through a fair bit since then (who hasn&rsquo...
    • 5 Mar 2021
  • The new normal, sharing secrets?

    We’ve all just settled into our routines now. The boys are used to me having no energy and disappearing for a nap, as well as the weekly trips to drop me off for my treatment. I’m so proud at how they have just accepted it as part of thei...
    • 28 Feb 2021
  • I’m no stronger than anyone else?

    It has been a bit of a strange week. I had what should have been an ‘easy’ week this week as I only had the Taxol last week but for some reason (I now think lack of a proper breakfast) I reacted badly and had a really rough few days. &nbs...
    • 19 Feb 2021
  • COVID vaccine and hot flushes - I have all the fun!

    I am feeling very grateful this week to be among the millions of people to have received the COVID vaccine! There have to be some perks to having cancer and going through chemotherapy.  I got the call last week once my GP had updated my records ...
    • 10 Feb 2021
  • Half way through chemo!

    It feels like I should celebrate this milestone I can't quite believe I am already halfway through the scheduled 18 sessions of chemotherapy, that's brilliant! It does feel great to think it is on the count down from here. I'm also relieved to be abl...
    • 31 Jan 2021
  • Accepting the inevitable

    I am nearly half way through my scheduled chemotherapy now.  This Thursday will mark my 9th session out of 18 and until last week and for the most part I have 'gotten away' with some tiredness for a couple of days following my treatment ...
    • 26 Jan 2021
  • The chemo guilt?

    This is a difficult post for me to write. Today has been one of the harder days for me. I’m two days post chemo at the start of a cycle which means all the drugs and therefore typically I’m feeling it! I’m exhausted and have mainly ...
    • 16 Jan 2021