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I haven't been on this site since my darling Ray passed over as I found it too hard.   He has been gone 1 year on the 3rd August and it has been the year from hell.   2 weeks after his funeral my younger sister Jane was diagnosed with Peritoneal Cancer (a form of ovarian cancer).  Up to that point she didn't even feel unwell, it was so sudden. She had an op to remove all the cancer and they told her she was 'microscopically…

My darling Ray died on Monday 3rd August at 09.45pm after a 5 month fight with cancer. I brought him home on the Friday before and he spent his last days in his own bed and died with all his family around him. It was very traumatic and sad but I was glad it was at home. I miss him so much as he was my soulmate, best friend and lover. My family have been terrific and helped me so much over the last few days with…

I have brought my wonderful husband Ray home from hospital today so that he can pass away in his own home. I cannot tell you what I am feeling at the moment as my emotions are all shot away. The palliative nurse has told me that he has days or even a week before he is with me no longer. I cannot imagine life without him, he is my soul mate, my lover, my friend, my everything and the love of my life and I don't know…

I have just come back from the hospital where my darling Ray had been told that the cancer in his liver has broken through the chemotherapy (doctors jargon). He was rushed in a week ago today with and very bad infection and his stomach very distended. They did CT Scan yesterday and told us the news at 6.46pm tonight that there really is not much hope. They are going to drain the fluid off his stomach tomorrow and…

I have only just joined as well, so forgive me for my gabble. My husband is at the moment sleeping - not coping very well with his 4th round of chemo. He is totally shattered, lethargic and his legs don't seem to work. He is on daily carboplatin tablets and epirubicin intraveniouslly every 3 weeks. It is knocking the crap out of him and I am totally at my wits end. I know he is not the only one suffering but…