I have just come back from the hospital where my darling Ray had been told that the cancer in his liver has broken through the chemotherapy (doctors jargon). He was rushed in a week ago today with and very bad infection and his stomach very distended. They did CT Scan yesterday and told us the news at 6.46pm tonight that there really is not much hope. They are going to drain the fluid off his stomach tomorrow and give him diuretics to ease the build up. They have put a morphine line in his arm today to ease his discomfort. I am at a loss, he is so brave and is constantly thinking of me not himself but I just feel at the moment like I want to take all his pain away. We were told 3 weeks ago that the tumour in his stomach was shrinking and were on a high but now the secondary is his liver is spreading. I want to bring him home and give him loads of love just to make his pain go away. He is such a marvellous man. We have known each other 20 years but only got married 2 years ago on his 60th birthday and we had so much planned for retirement, but now all that has gone up in smoke. I love him so much and cannot imagine life without him. He has been through so much over the last 10 years, triple heart by pass 8 years ago, first heart attack at 43 (he is 62 now) and always fought through things but this is different we both know he will not win this battle. I cannot imagine him not being in my life anymore.
FormerMember
I am so sorry to hear about your husband Ray, life is so cruel to give you hope and then snatch it away from you so quickly. It is so typical of our loved ones who have cancer to think only of us and not themselves, My sister has secondary cancer in her liver and I treasure every day I spend with her.
Please don't think you are useless, just being there for Ray is what he needs, I understand your fear and I really feel for you.
My thoughts are with you and Ray during this very difficult time .
