I have brought my wonderful husband Ray home from hospital today so that he can pass away in his own home. I cannot tell you what I am feeling at the moment as my emotions are all shot away. The palliative nurse has told me that he has days or even a week before he is with me no longer. I cannot imagine life without him, he is my soul mate, my lover, my friend, my everything and the love of my life and I don't know how I will cope without him. He is asleep in his own bed at the moment after 2 weeks in hospital where they did everything possible for him. All of the nurses fell in love with him and called him a wonderful gentleman. He didn't know until this week that the cancer had gone completely out of control so it was bit of shock, but as usual he took the news with great dignity. I on the other hand feel cheated. Is this normal? I now have to go and tell his 87 year old mum (who has already lost 2 children) that her son will not recover. I think this will finish her off. I am on autopilot, trying to make him comfortable while really just wanting him back with me as he was before this terrible disease took hold of him. We only found out he had cancer in February and time has gone so fast since then. He had 4 bouts of chemo which was awful and had two more to go but the cancer broke through it and invaded his liver even more. I want to let everyone know what a champion he is to me and hope that he doesn't suffer too much before he goes to his father, sister and brother who have already gone. I have told him that he will see them all again shortly hoping this will give him some comfort. Ann
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My dear sweet lady.....................I wish I could comfort you at this time, but I can't. My thoughts are with you both and that is all I have to offer.Your love for eachother will always be there and no one can take your memories away.
You are so brave to confront with the cruel reality. You are giving your husband the best time possible in this ordeal. I pray for you and your family.
My heart goes out to you. It is the worst feeling in the world knowing that your loved one has limited time. I am sure that being at home with you, and having his family and friends around him will be a huge comfort to Ray. My brother died of pacreatic cancer 8 years ago , 4 months after diagnosis and had all the family with him when he died. Just before he died he stretched out his arms as though he was reaching out to someone, and it gives me comfort to think that my dad and sister had come to meet him. I hope that the happy memories you have of your life with Ray will be a comfort to you in the coming months.
Ann my thoughts are with you at this time. It sounds to me like your husband is an amazing brave man and you are an amazing brave woman, so very lucky to have one another. I hope these last days together are peaceful for you both and you find every strength to get through.
