Ok have my wonderful appointment at the 'One stop gynae diagnostic clinic' - sounds like some sort of supermarket.
Can not face breakfast and tummy has decided that it would like to empty - at least they should get a better look this time then lol!!
I did sleep last night so that was a plus - do not look quite so awful/bride of frankenstein like.
Will update later
Hi all - time for the next installment of the waiting game.
Worked at home today - able to do quite a bit considering. Had a day of training yesterday which was great as I spent the day focusing on something else.
Wow I am becoming a domestic goddess - what do you do when you need to take mind off the 'what ifs...'. Change beds; tidy up, clean house; sort out washing; make yogurt; shop online - oops that should not…
Yesterday was not such a good day. Since the GP said it might be cancer last week - first day of new term I have been office based. I could hide behind my desk, not talk with anyone, look at computer and have headphones on to block out thoughts.
Yesterday I had to 'go out into the world'. Get out of the car and say 'Right put professional head on'. Do the job, focus... First appt not too bad although feels a bit of a…
Never knew that worrying could be so exhausting. Wow it is wearing me out!!!
I think I will now write it as my occupation as I seem to spend the majority of my time doing it. i don't get paid to do it - this is all for free. No bonus or overtime even though i do it outside mormal office hours - this is not just 9-5 woryying you know this is 24/7 - boy am i committed - and probably will be.
I may even go for another…
I carried on as normal today. I went out with friends and did what I had to do.
I don't have a diagnosis. I don't know what is wrong. All I have been told is my symptoms could possibly indicate cancer. Do they realise just what they are saying when they use that word? They could also be a number of other conditions that are less 'serious' but my mind does not dare hope for fear of having them dashed.
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