I have not had a bad day. In fact i have felt quite normal at times. I am trying to stay positive.
However, there are times in the day when I just feel alone. Even in a room full of people and family - I am in my own world - I have to deal with this and my thoughts.
I think the gap between being told there might be a problem and when you go to see someone seems like forever. This is a kind of limbo - not that I intend…
I used to love fair ground rides - then i got vertigo and they made me feel sick.
I feel a bit like I'm on a roller coaster ride now. One minute I think - 'Yep I can deal with this. It is early days, it may not be anything serious' I carry on positively. The next minute I think 'OMG how am I going to cope what if ...' and the mind races off into areas that really are not good! It is such a weird feeling.…
Ok so my first blog was rather negative. Apologies for the rants of an unstable woman who is trying to deal with the possibility that she has cancer.
I never realised how your life can change so drastically with the mention of one word. Although I should as my dad died of lung cancer and my mum had breast cancer last year - but she is fine and all clear now.
I have gotten through the day by listening to radio 4 - never…
Ok so never blogged before but feel I need to unload and get the feelings out there and out of my head.
Do you feel like you are going mad? I look around at people and life and think - I was normal a few weeks ago now I feel like I am in a fog!
The waiting and not knowing what the outcome will be is just so wearing. I find myself in all kinds of scenarios.
I am still waiting for further tests and have no diagnosis…
