The unmentionable cancer

well, the sun is shining, clean white towels are blowing on the line, and I don't feel nearly as bad as I thought I was going to, praise God!

i am blessed. Mind you,  I'm still paranoid about every little ache and twinge, but I've managed to keep off a lot of the meds, and just take the minimum. Common sense, so far, is prevailing! Mostly! I am a bit obsessive with the thermometer!

actually feel well enough…

As I wait to start treatment, and get verbal and anxious about what is to come, I look around this amazing site and read many of the posts! When I was posting to a fairly small extent over 3 years ago, I was consumed with grief while looking after my dying man. Even then, I was aware that there were whose life situation was so awful compared with mine. The practicalities of my situation were not extreme, as a life long…

Well, Hickman line safely installed. Not quite the walk in the park I was promised...however! as I have previously posted, I was very apprehensive prior to it. I really don't like being messed with in this way. The girls on the interventional radiography unit were so kind and reassuring, I can't thank them enough for their sensitivity. 

God is so good, and answers prayer, I never know why I should doubt! I was…

Well, I had my mapping CT scan this afternoon. That was not a bad experience. Except they put a sticky marker on my 'you know what', and then had to pull it off afterward! Eek! They wouldn't give me a dolphin on my right hip! Shame! I'm the tattooed lady! Why....when you don't need a wee, but can't have a wee, do you immediately need one, and a poo too? The body does some very strange things when the mind is twitchy…

I have such a mix of feelings about this shock diagnosis. It would appear to be an unmentionable cancer, implying strange behaviour in the past! I shall just look coy! 😝 Think what you like! Since receiving the news I have become a raving hypochondriac! Every small pain that I would usually ignore now becomes the focus of attention and has a sinister meaningI I imagine my lymph nodes are involved, or I have secondaries…