I should be going to my first councilling session today, so as I should have been alone I arranged for my sister to come and stay with me last night so I would have some support if I felt emotional afterwards. But after she arrived yesterday afternoon I got a call from the councillor oppologising but cancelling my appointment at short notice and remaking it for next monday. She said she had a referral but equally was…
I woke this morning and all I can feel is guilty and sorry.
Guilty because my husband was dying and I couldn't even tell. I know he was ill and I knew he was getting worse, but I didn't know he was dying. I didn't support him like I would have felt shit and I thought it would all get better and he was being a little lazy (at first anyway). He kept saying sorry, he hadn't done the house work etc but he had just slept…
only 81/2 weeks, but things are changing.
I hate to admit it but I do feel different, the pain is still there but a bit less raw. The appetite that had gone is back (i'll have to watch that sweet tooth). And things keep changing, it makes me feel so bad that Mark will not see them.
I am going to be the Godmother to my best friends baby girl. She was born only 3 weeks before mark died but he did manage to see her…
today is my sisters birthday, she does not want to celebrate. She has been there for me as much as possible and her husband has had a bit of a nervous breakdown since my Mark passed away. It was not solely due to what happened to Mark as it was building even before we found out he was seriously ill but I am sure it didn't help.
I understand her feelings but feel that she needs a day for her. she has been worrying…
I feel numb mostly the last few days but i am still feeling angry with my cousin.
Last week she was dumped by her boyfriend of just over a year who she had just moved in with this summer. I appreciate that that must feel shit. However she had the nerve to compare her feelings with what i am going through!!!
To make it worse she then proceeded to OD and put herself in hospital, just because some stupid bloke who clearly…
