only 81/2 weeks, but things are changing.
I hate to admit it but I do feel different, the pain is still there but a bit less raw. The appetite that had gone is back (i'll have to watch that sweet tooth). And things keep changing, it makes me feel so bad that Mark will not see them.
I am going to be the Godmother to my best friends baby girl. She was born only 3 weeks before mark died but he did manage to see her. She has changed so much in such a short time. I had assumed that her sister and sister-in-law would be godmothers, but I am so proud to be asked. Her mum would have been my other bridesmaid if she weren't heavily pregnant and her dad was the best man. We have been friends since we were 5, and although I tried to show my support even from a different city I now know how unsupportive I really was when she lost her mum at a young age, whilst I was at uni.
I went striaght on line and ordered the tiny feet paperweight that me and Mark had seen and said we would buy as a christening present. I hope if I tell them that they will like it and not get upset about it. I wish Mark could be there too, but we will have to accept him as her guardian angel godfather.
It is a very good thing and I am so Proud to be asked and accept, I hope they understand why maybe I didn't sound a enthusiastic as maybe I might have if the circumstances had been different.
T
