Coping with disruption to life

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Hello all. 

I am really, REALLY hoping this comes across in the way it's meant to, and that no one thinks I'm complaining about nothing (in the grand scheme of things) but does anyone else really struggle with the sudden change of plans for life? For context: 

I am 36 years old, diagnosed with Endometrial Adenocarcinoma and Atypical Hyperplasia 3 weeks ago after a  Hystoscopy and biopsy of a polyp in my uterus 14 weeks ago. It is believed to be grade 1. 

I have had an MRI and the course of action decided upon is an ovary sparing hysterectomy within the next 4 weeks (I'm just waiting for a slot.) This morning I got a call to say that my pre-operative health assessment (that I had Friday - ECG, bloods etc) have come back with poor ferritin levels, and I need to go in to clinic this Friday morning to discuss. 

I have of course agreed, but the problem I have is this: I am an active person who has a sports hobby that I spend most of my free time and energy engaging in (it's also related to my job.) This Friday was a really important competition for me that I've been preparing for since January and was so excited. Excited to compete, excited to see all my friends, excited for a slice of normal in amongst the chaos that my life seems to have been thrown into since I had my suprise diagnosis. 

When the receptionist called me this morning and gave me my time and date for clinic, it was the first time I've properly cried about all this - and sat on the phone sobbing, pleading with her for an alternative time. She and my Gynaeoncology nurse have said they are going to try and see what they can do, but make absolutely no promises. 

Afterwards I felt so embarrassed about getting so visibly upset - but I am still devastated, and while I know I need to focus on getting through this, it still feels so unfair that this has happened.

I have already had to start coming to terms with the fact that my carefully planned year of competing and training is not going to pan out, but to remove the one comp I thought I was going to be able to make before surgery feels devastating.

Does anyone else understand this? Am I alone? 

  • Hi RadiantSeal, 

    Firstly, I am sorry to read about your diagnosis, I hope you have the support around you. 

    I absolutely agree with you and understand where you are coming from. I am 34 and dealing with an atypical hyperplasia diagnosis at the moment and I am currently trying hormonal methods as fertility preservation to try and avoid having a hysterectomy straight away. But with all of that it has completely changed my life as well. My husband and I were due to relocate this year until my diagnosis in March. Now I am needing to stay put to be with the same care team etc. I also have struggled to work so it’s also really effecting every day life.

    I have felt just as upset about the impact and changes on my life as the diagnosis itself and I’m sorry to hear you are also affected. But hopefully me relating provides you some comfort. 

    I also wanted to say that I also suffered with low ferritin levels and when I had my biopsies they were done under general anaesthetic and I had to go through pre op and this is where they had me back in. I had to have an iron infusion to have general anaesthetic due to this and then be re-tested to check it was ok to go ahead - it was. This may not be the case for you but once I had my infusion it was all ok to go ahead and I had a more recent thorough biopsy which was also ok to go ahead due to this. My iron and ferritin levels were bad due to my high loss of blood from periods. 

    Hopefully your team can come back to you with a more suitable appointment time. In the meantime reach out for support - this group is fantastic for that and I have found it so useful to me.

    Take care and hope all goes well for you

    Frankie x

  • Totally understand, and you are not alone.

    I went through the horrendous period of tests and waiting for results, had my op sprung on me, appt Friday am and they said they had a cancellation for the Monday, and didn’t really cry. But the day I had to call the holiday company to cancel holiday I had planned to celebrate my birthday, I managed to get through the call and then completely lost it! 

    I do hope they can come up with alternative date for you, will keep my fingers crossed x

  • Totally understand. This is something you are in a position to be able to do at a point when your life is about to go in a very different direction than you anticipated. I really hope they can give you an alternative date & time so that your competition can go ahead & you get to spend time with your friends. Good luck with it, in anticipation of it going ahead, and let us know how you get on.

  • If you’d been unwell on Friday, they’d have had to find another date to offer you, so if it had been me I’d have just told them that I had a prearranged appointment that I couldn’t cancel and could they let me know please when an alternative appointment could be offered or if it could be done by phone. Your predicted grade is grade 1 - grade 1 is slow growing. FWIW my hysterectomy in 2022 (also predicted grade 1)  was 7 weeks post diagnosis. My hospital aimed to do hysterectomies for grade 1 cancer within 6-8 weeks post diagnosis.