I had an internal examination today with my oncology surgeon, and she spotted what she described as an area that looked like an ulcer at the top of my vagina. I had surgery on Feb 3rd 2025 to remove all but 3 inches of my vagina. I completed my chemo on 31st August.
I've been experiencing some discomfort in my vagina, but no bleeding. So today has side swiped me. She asked when my CT scan is, (it's 27th August). She also took a swab and there was some blood on the swab. She let my wife have a look at the time, and it was described as ulcer like in appearance, white inside, red around it. Which is exactly how my 2 other recurrences looked.
I feel devastated, even though it may not be cancer again and I need to wait and see. It feels like deja vu. Just when I was looking forward to getting some normality back in my life
Hi Lee
Am so sorry that your internal today revealed an ulcer in your vagina. I understand how devastating this must feel after your previous recurrences.
I think it is natural to fear the worst when you have been through cancer and treatment but try to hold on to the fact it may not be cancer again. If it is and you are still having these regular checks, then this is exactly what they are for- to try to catch any recurrence at the very earliest stage.
I know it will be hard to focus on much else until your scan on Wednesday and do give the Support Line a call if you need to chat things through. It may not be a recurrence but if it is then once you know for sure then a treatment plan can be discussed.
I am sorry that you are going through this again and I understand how much we all want to get some normality back in our lives after cancer treatment. Will be thinking of you. Good luck for Wednesday and we are here if you need us in the meantime.
Jane
Hi Lee
Worth giving them a call just to talk it through with someone neutral.
I understand how you feel about treatment- I found chemo hard too. However at the moment it is not confirmed , once they know either way it may well be there are different treatment options- and once you know those options then you can decide what you want to do.
Jane
