Having a bad day

Hi Rach

Do you think maybe you are feeling this way because you had prepared yourself for bad news buy because it wasn't its made you doubt what was said.

Please don't worry. the nurses are fully trained to give the results and I'm sure they are correct, however, why don't you give them a call again in the morning and ask her to repeat the results for you as you didn't really take them in the first time. This way you can chill out and enjoy the lovely upcoming weekend. 

Big hugs

Robin x

Hi Robin, I think it is probably because it was a new nurse, she used to work on the chemo ward now she’s doing this because one of the other nurses is going on maternity leave so that might be playing on my mind.  Think it could also be because one of the nurses told me at the start after looking at my first scan I would be stage 2 at worst and I joked and said when I see the other doctor they won’t change me to a 4 will they and we laughed and she said no then the day before I went to the other hospital she rang to give me a heads up they had changed it to 4 so now I’m worried I have been told good news but the oncologist will tell me something different.  I spoke to her today to ask her a question and I asked her if I was right in saying that I’m stable and some of it was shrinking and she said yes.  Think there is some anxiety about seeing the doctor and finding out what my next step will be. X

Bless you Rach. no wonder you are feeling nervous about being told your results if they have been changed previously. Do you have an appointment date for seeing the doctor yet? if the appointment is along way off it would be worth calling the CNS back for them to repeat the results. Hopefully you will get a different nurse this time to speak to.

Robin xx

No not had an appointment yet, my nurse emailed her and she said she had emailed back saying she knows I’m waiting for an appointment but they are very busy and her secretary is going through her appointments so should be in touch soon with a date. X

Hi Rach_E. It is hard to stop expecting bad news. I had a hard time some years ago where I woke up every day expecting something bad to happen, which I think was a defence mechanism after having lots of bad news in a short space of time. (not connected to the cancer, it was other stuff going on). It took a long while before I shook that feeling of dread and realised that not every day was going to be a bad day. I hope everything goes well for you. I agree with Robin27 perhaps you could phone your CNS and talk this over. They must be used to patients feeling like this. LR.

I don't know if this will make you feel better, but my Drs office always has a Nurse call me with my results....drives me bonkers.....I'd rather the Dr call me...I've never even SEEN the FACE of the Nurse that calls me......its disheartening but they are totally qualified.