Having a bit if a wobbler

Hi Rach_E. Don't worry about the rant -  I can understand it's set your anxiety off again. I'm not medically trained so I don't know what they can do to reduce bulky lymph nodes. I had 6 or 8 removed during my op but I was long post menopause at the time.

I have read of ladies on here having a coil fitted rather than having a hysterectomy. I know the waiting for them to decide what's the best treatment for you is a horrendous time so why not give your a GP a call and see if they can give you anything for your anxiety in the meantime.

Sending you hugs, Barb xx

Thank you for your reply MrsBJH I had a coil fitted when they did my biopsy 7 weeks ago but they told me to keep taking the pill for 6 weeks while it settled but was scared to stop taking it without speaking to my nurse.  The wait is horrible and most of the time I’m ok but after speaking to her today and her saying that they may not operate has worried me.  I just want it out of me and to get better, hate knowing that it’s in there doing whatever it’s doing.  The two bulky lymph nodes are worrying me but as she said everywhere else on the scan was clear.  I might speak to my gp about something for the anxiety while I’m waiting for the hospital to get back in touch

I have had a bad day today too, went to work and was OK then all of a sudden had a meltdown and just couldn't deal with work and asked my manager if I could go home. She was great and told me to look after myself and rest at home. I just felt overwhelmed and that I couldn't cope. I've been holding it together for the past 4 weeks then it just got on top of me. I suddenly realised how serious this is and although my cancer is at an early stage and my prognosis is good, I needed to take some time for myself to get my head round what's going on. I am taking tomorrow off work too.

Hope you are ok Rach take care I know what you are going through.

I'm so sorry to know you're having a bit of a wobbler, as well. It's great that you've decided to take off work tomorrow for some 'you' time. 

After what seems like forever, I'm having a problem wrapping my head around my life, as well.

Take care, love and big hugs,

Ms. Muggle (Jan)