Fear of Leaving Home

P.S. With my having cancelled the colonoscopy, I just feel terrified and can't seem to function in this world. 

Ms. Muggle

Hello, 

Have you spoken to anybody about your anxiey? The Macmilan support line is very good. Also you could speak to your GP.

Is there someone who can go with you to support you. My Mum and Stepdad were terrified to go out because of covid but I  managed to get my mum to an eye appointment which she said she wouldn't have attended if I  wasn't with her. You have to be ready in your own time and speaking to someone will definitely help.

Do you have a CNS who you can talk to about your fears of going for your colonoscopy? If not try to speak to the department dealing with your treatment, they should be able to answer your questions and hopefully put your mind at rest as to the procedure and what it involves. 

I wish you all the very best and am sending you a big hug x

Amyycdi

Thank you so very much for helping me out. I appreciate it. I'm happy to say that I managed, through the anxiety, to go outside. It's a beginning and I'm going to rebook the cancelled appointment tomorrow afternoon. Just getting out of here helped only, honestly, now that I'm back, I feel some relief. At least my day wasn't wasted being paralyzed by fear.

Thank you again.

Ms. Muggle

Hi Ms Muggle,

I felt just like you. I think the lock downs have affected a lot of us, including my 10 year old grand child, who became very withdrawn. She is far better since being at school again.

I even had to screw up courage to go on a bus again, and when I did, there was no-one on it!! Even yesterday we took our grand children to a superb play park and all the time I couldn't forget the feeling I shouldn't be with loads of people.

I think it will take some time to get over it all, but you have made the first step. It will get better.

Oh, NannyAnny, I feel so badly for your granddaughter. No child should have to suffer this fear. It's just so good that she's improved since school began.

The world has become such a scary place. Nothing is normal ... not the bus, the shops, and, after such a long time, it feels never ending. I wonder if it will ever end. Experiencing this level of terror is just breeding more and more anxiety and hopelessness. If life seemed hopeless before, it feels impossible now.

Thank you for the empathy and encouragement. It meazns so much.

Ms. Muggles xx

Jan, I am impressed that you even made an appointment for the Hairdresser.   I haven't been since before the first lockdown!   My hair was very short then and I lasted months before it got too bad and since then I have cut it myself.  It is a testament to the excitement in my life that it was weeks before anyone noticed!  I feel I almost preferred Lockdown to my present life.  At least then I knew what we could do.  We are fortunate enough to have an area of woodland nearby  so walks there are pretty stress free.  But like you I wonder if we will ever have the confidence to feel relaxed in our local Town Centre again.   

Anne, Thank you. I was a total wreck yet did, in the end, manage to get out the door. I was nervous until I got home, yet I surely looked better. My hair had been up in this horrible bun thing and my fringe was to my chin. It was frightful! Oh, I wish we had a lovely place to walk nearby. However, there really isn't. You know, I can't imagine life as it was without the worry of other people. So sad ...

XXXX

Hi Ladies

I didn't venture back in to a shop for nearly 16 months. I'd had online deliveries throughout and once lockdown was eased  I still hesitated

Hi Ladies

I didn't venture back in to a shop for nearly 16 months. I'd had online deliveries throughout and once lockdown was eased  I still hesitated

Don't know what happened there - 2 replies before I'd finished. Anyway I digress as to hair issues. At the moment I'm looking more and more like Hagrid. My hairdresser comes to my home and was able to give me a trim back in April, she couldn't stop laughing at my fringe - bit like the days of Twiggy gone very wrong! Can't believe how much it's grown in 4 months!

Glad you plucked up the courage to get out eventually. As we've dogs we'd been out walking daily and chatted to friends on opposite sides of the road so we didn't really think lockdown had affected us too badly. However my brother-in-law has completely changed from a confident outgoing person in to a virtual hermit - he's 86 so I hope he gets his confidence back.

Love to all, hugs, Barb xx