Hey, So I’ve never done anything like this on forum. I honestly think I just need to rant it all out. I’m 20 and I’ve been struggling with my mums recent diagnosis of triple negative invasive breast cancer. everything’s happened so fast I think I’m in shock. Mum shaved her head last week. I’m finding all of these milestones hard. I’m trying to be brave for her but it all absolutely terrifies me. I’ve been struggling with stress, anxiety and just feeling strange and not my usual happy, bubbly, positive self. I also just feel this enormous sadness and anger, it’s selfish really. I just can’t help feeling this way. I find it hard to tell mum it’s going to be okay because I can’t promise it. If I’m honest I’ve never felt more alone and frightened as I do now. I have lovely friends and family that have reached out but it still doesn’t change these feelings I have. I find it so hard watching mum get weaker by the day and not being able to help her. I constantly dread each day and what complications and challenges they bring. I feel like I’m just in survival mode and don’t know how to get out of it or be less selfish and stop feeling this way. I know I need to sort myself out I’m no good to my mum if I stressed and struggling. I need to be the old happy positive me. I just wish I could turn the clock back or see into the future and know it’s going to be okay :(
Hi Amb.x and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I’m Anne, one of the Community Champions here on the Online Community and I was diagnosed with TNBC in April 2022. One thing to remember is that breast cancer is very treatable and although some of the treatments might have unpleasant side effects, they are doable.
As you know the online community is divided up into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you also join and post in the family and friends group, which is a great place to share your feelings and get support from others who have a loved one living with cancer.
To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
It would be great if you could put something about your mum's diagnosis and treatment into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
