So long Wayne....

Good luck for the operation, take lots of time to rest and to yourself. There’s no right way to deal with this so everything you’re feeling is relatable. Things will get better, slowly but surely, wishing you the best! 

Hi

Yes it’s certainly a strange journey we’re all on! It sounds like you’re stressed but trying to mask it for others or maybe to try to fool yourself. A cancer diagnosis is big, when I was told I was initially very matter of fact and continued with my day of shopping and other things. It was only days later, and actually now I think of it, seeing the response of loved ones, that I started to process things and wobble! You need to give yourself some time, I’m surprised you’re still at work, are you working right up until your surgery? I found the surgery was ok, give yourself as much time as you need after to recover physically as well as emotionally. Wishing you all the best 

My lump was called Ludovic. 

I recommend getting some good audiobooks or some banging music for your commute. Don't let the demons of doubt dance on your drive.

I think we have all been through similar feelings @ArchiesDad and we battle on bravely facing the unknown quite well then all of sudden things just get on top of us and we have a bit of a meltdown then pick ourselves up again and battle on once more.  It doesn't help if you are feeling poorly too, I am lucky that I haven't felt ill at all, but I have definitely been weepy both before diagnosis and at times since, although much better post op than before, but then it is hormonal problem so quite normal.  Hope you are feeling better today and best wishes for your op on Tuesday, hope all goes well x