Feelings a month on from diagnosis

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Hi everyone

It has been a little over a month since i was diagnosed with Thyroid cancer and it still doesn't feel real.

I have had a meeting with the ENT consultant a few weeks ago and was supposed to be before the MDT the following week. When i rang to get an update, I was told that it hadn't been discussed and would be before the MDT last Wednesday. I rang the secretary on Thursday and they found out from the MDT team that they had requested more information from my previous scans in Cork, and hadn't received it yet. I spoke to Cork on Thursday and they said they hadn't received any request, but would arrange for the information to be sent.

When I spoke to the secretary on Friday, they said that an ultrasound had been requested, but they were awaiting confirmation from consultant about possible aspirations being required, as they wanted to get that done (if necessary) at the same time rather than doing an ultrasound and then having to call me back for an aspirations as well.

The last few weeks my emotions have been all over the place about what is going on. I am trying to keep myself busy to stop from overthinking everything. I have bee very emotional at times, and it still doesn't feel real. I am up and about and walking and doing "normal" stuff (but I am signed off from work until the end of the month at the moment), but that doesn't feel right in the context of a cancer diagnosis.

Tony

  • I got my diagnosis about a month ago as well. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs, the crying has mostly stopped on the outside now, but it feels like there’s a bit of a mask in place because crying just becomes exhausting, if you know what I mean.

    It sounds like things with your doctors and communication between everyone have been really messy and stressful, and I’m really sorry you’re having to deal with that.

    Were you given a support worker? My hospital assigned one, along with nurses I could contact, which I found really helpful. I also reached out to Macmillan, and they were brilliant to talk to. They pointed me towards local groups and counselling options.

    I agree that we somehow have to keep going, but this is a huge thing to process, and it’s completely normal to feel overwhelmed and to try different ways of coping.

    Sorry for the ramble, I’ve never been great on online forums. I mainly wanted to say “hey, me too.” People keep telling me to be kind to myself, and I wish the same for you: please be kind to yourself.